cracking open my shell

To anyone who hides behind a smile
To anyone who holds their pain inside
To anyone who thinks they’re not good enough
To anyone who feels unworthy of love
To anyone who ever closed the door
Closed their eyes and locked themselves away

You don’t have to hide
You don’t have to hide anymore
You don’t have to face this on your own
You don’t have to hide anymore

So come out, come out
Come out wherever you are
Anyone who’s trying to cover up their scars
To anyone who’s ever made a big mistake
We’ve all been there so don’t be ashamed
So come out, come out and join the rest of us
You’ve been alone for way to long

And if you feel like no one understands
Come to the one with scars on His hands
Cause He knows where you are and where you’ve been
His scars will heal you if you let Him

- Hide by Joy Williams

many of you may know this (or maybe not), but i am a really private person. i let thoughts germinate in my head and only let them out when i'm comfortable or trusting enough of the other person.

and in the song it says "you don't have to face this on your own" and "and if you feel like no one understands/come to the one with scars on his hands". i guess i'm learning that keeping everything within me is not good.. fo myself and those around me.... and i am slowly learning to open up..

i guess what i have been fearing all along is that if i do open up, make myself vulnerable, i'll be.. urm.. disappointed??

anyway... im not a very verbal person.. and i think that writing is my best way to pen down what i've been wrestling with... and hence i think starting a blog has been a hooge step for me.. in opening up a part of my life that no one except God had access to..

so here i am.. learning to come out of my shell.. one step at a time.. to all my close friends and loved ones.. just bear with me...