first step into the workforce

thoughts running through my head in the dead of night...

*die!! photography due at the beginning of oct... still waiting for a camera... need to get the film and paper.. need to think of a theme... so many many things to do... argh!! i dont think the no contact week is sufficient!!*

*oh no.. its monday tmw... the ocf announcements need to be sent out by tues.. right?? must get the stuff from jie.. must remember.. hmm.. wat have i gotten myself into??*

*shucks!! there's a test for colour and texture [yes guys, a test.. but it wasnt a written one la.. turned out it was picking colours of similar hue, nuance, chromaticness and tonal value.. ] turned out there wasnt much to worry bout..*

*certain ppl just told me how many things the sec actually does.. what have i set myself up for?? in between the job.. and uni.. will i spread myself out too thin?? will it affect my devotion time?? [pause to say short prayer: God, please help me trust that with all that You have entrusted to me, You will be able to give me the strength, and time management to get through it all] seems to me like God is gonna give me a lesson on juggling...keep trusting God.. keep trusting God.. you can't do it on your own and you know it...*

[receives sms from pui li.. which turns out into a few sms-long convesation]

*i miss home.. can't wait to go home... should i stay on for agm after convention??.. but.. i wanna go home... *

[glances at clock]

*shoot need to sleep soon*

[toss and turn for a while and eventually drifted off to la-la land]

i dont know about u guys.. but it is moments before i go to bed that i do most of my thinking (and worrying)... and it is at the end of the day where you gather all your thoughts... some may keep you awake right into the wee hours of the morning.. keeping you from your all important rest... some thought will cause you to just shout out to God and just lay everything at His feet.. and it is after when that is done that you actually manage to drift off into sleep... knowing that everything is now out of your hands, and is being handled by someone more able, and more powerful, and to whom nothing is too minute, or impossible...